My last date with darkness.

I sat in my room, in complete darkness.

It surrounds me with silence all around.

Wrapped its arms around me and holds me tightly.

It crushes hard, for me to meet my last breath.

I hear its heartbeat for the last time.

As i lay dying, my senses give way, my heart shall

rest, all my grief's may vanish.

My sorrows, pains and sufferings will leave me, and my

presence will not be felt again.

It will allow me to rest in peace for once and for all.

Its dark colour to fade my memorises, to take my life to the doorstep of death.

For my voice shall never be heard, for my eyes to sleep forever.

I shall happily commit myself

to this relationship.

The cold feeling of dark shall cover my body for my blood to hold its

rush and my muscles to relax forever.

May those extra seconds of my life be given to those whom i love, for them to live life an

extra second on my behalf.

Its a silent gesture made by me as darkness has everything to offer.

There is no noise, there is no light, there is no sign of life inside me. Once I commit myself,

the journey of my life ends. I may then sleep and not wake, till forever is over. Till then

darkness holds me as I

R.I.P.

A Mighty Gift

I asked God for strenght,

that I might achieve.

I was made weak,

that I might learn humbly to obey.



I asked for health,

that I might do greater things.

I was given infirmity,

that I might do better things.



I asked for riches,

that I might be happy.

I was given poverty,

that I might be wise.



I asked for power,

that I might have the praise of men.

I was given weakness,

that I might feel the need of God.



I asked for all things,

that I might enjoy life.

I was given life,

that I might enjoy all things.



I got nothing that I asked for,

but everything that I had hoped for.

Almost despite myself,

my unspoken prayers were answered.



I am among all men,

most richly blessed.

Song: The one I love

Sun sets for the moon to shine

We hold hands for a cozy night

I see the rain coming down

my nights are cold when you're not around

Whispering into each others ears

talking about those lovely years

makes me wonder how lucky i was

to have someone like you

I pray to god for your better tomorrow,

I pray to him for the one i love.

Since you have gone

I'm lonely at night

my days are longer

my time isn't right

i miss your touch, i miss your kiss

me touching your belly and holding you near

I pray to god you face no fear,

I pray to him for the one I love.

Your deep breath

You skipping a beat

There is no air between us when i hold you close to me

Your soft skin, your beautiful long hair

lying next to you I love your smell

The warmth I get, the static I feel

kissing your lips kissing your neck

I swear on god i miss you my dear,

I pray to him for the one i love.

written by :- Saharsha Raj Sabharwal.

Moments Define...

One day there will be no us
One day things will change

One day people will leave

One day moon will disappear

One day might look too long to you

One day lovers will get married

One day boundaries will be removed

One day sky will look colorful

One day you will feel good

One day you will learn to live alone

One day you will find nobody

One day people will recognise you

One day people might forget you

One day your heart will beat faster

One day you will die.

Never loose a moment to say I care

Never loose a moment to say I love

Never loose a moment to say I'm here

Never loose a moment to do what you want to do

Never loose a moment to think twice

Never loose a moment to appreciate gold price.

People are here for a reason- Reason to love, reason to care, reason to share.

Don't hate people- Hate yourself for doing something wrong.

Never loose a moment to make someone feel good or else it might be too late.

People might 'want' things

but they 'need' support.

Support of their family, friends, lover.

There is no better thing to do than to help someone.

Do not look for faults in others

find out what you can do better.

Life will finish- live it with happiness and affection.

Life is a moment that flies.

They say- 'time will not stop for you', but you can make it stop.

Do not compete to be the best- compete to help the rest.

Do not show your power- show your inner desire

Because life is here to stay

make full use of it.

'Each moment is a mystery and a step towards future for a better present.'

The inner voice cries

Fear of loosing hope,

fear of loosing life,

fear of loosing friends,

fear of loosing family.

So much to say but the words wont come out.

They are buried deep down inside.

A helping hand, your voice inside.

Moments of joy, life a struggle.

Need somebody next to near.

There is no hatred, there is no fear

If people here help each other.

Kiss of love, handshake of friendship

a hug everyday for people who need it.

Forgiveness and love, feeling of trust

makes people in this world live together.

What a girl wants

A guy who calls her beautiful instead of hot, who calls her back when she hangs up on you, who will lie under the stars and listen to her heartbeat, or will stay awake just to watch her sleep... wait for the boy who kisses her forehead, who wants to show her off to the world, who holds her hand in front of his friends, who thinks she's just as pretty without makeup on. One who is constantly reminding her of how much he cares and how lucky he is to have her.... The one who turns to his friends and says, "that's her.”

Love Story...

There was a boy, who loved a girl. That girl used to work in a music store. That boy used to visit the store everyday and bought Cd's from there. But actually, he used to go to talk to that girl and spend time with her. But the boy never had the courage to say 'I love you' to that girl. This carried on for a long time. After few days the girl was worried and went to his house to check on him. When she reached his home, the boy's grand mother opened the door. The girl asked bout that boy. Grandmother said he died this morning. Grandmother took her to his room. She saw all the Cd's untouched and still packed. She started crying after seeing all the Cd's, because inside every Cd pack there was a note which said 'I love you'.

-True love untold.

Never loose a chance to say 'I love you' to the one you love.

Quotes

• A person is literally what he thinks.

• Nothing great was ever achieved without enthusiasm.

• Don't make any decision when you are angry and don't make any promise when you are happy.

• Forgiveness means letting go of a hurtful situation and moving on with your own happiness.

• Experience is a teacher because she gives the test first and the lesson afterwords.

• Believe in your own strengths but have faith in others capabilities.

• We are accountable to this earth on which we live, to nature which sustains us and most importantly, to ourselves.

• The fear of failure is more dangerous than failure itself.

• Appreciate the smiles of children, notice only the good points of others. Your life will always be full of sweetness, peace and satisfaction.

• Like sunrise engulfs darkness, Courage helps one to surmount suffering.

• Like a termite the word 'if' weakens your ability to act. It makes you feel you are incomplete.

• You cannot translate all your dreams into reality. But they can act as a foundation stone for a glorious future.

• Living does not merely mean existing. It is the quality of life not the quantity that is important. Life ultimately means moving ahead and proving yourself in the face of difficulties.

• An idea is extremely short lived. Hence it is best to take an action as soon as it blossoms.

• Happiness is a state of mind. You may find it in a palace or in a tiny cottage.

• We should not overlook what lies behind our success. It is the struggle of our parents, who have sacrificed their present to ensure a secure future for us.

• It takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, but then an entire life to forget them.

• God is in heaven.. because he fears what he has CREATED.

• Form is temporary, but Class is permanent.

• People can be divided into three groups:

Those who make things happen.

Those who watch things happen.

And those who wonder what happened.

Love

I love you but I'm not your lover.

I care for you but I'm not from your family.

I am ready to share your pain but I'm not in your blood relation.

I am your true friend and you are my sweetheart.

True friend scolds like a dad,

cares like a mother,

teases like a sister,

irritates like a brother

and finally loves you more than a lover.

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I'm not supposed to love you, I'm not supposed to care.

I'm not supposed to live my life wishing you were there.

I'm not supposed to wonder where you are or what you do,

but I'm sorry i can't help myself because I'm in love with you.

Happiness and Sadness

Happiness and Sadness, two things that are part of everybody's life. There is no reason to be happy. Happiness is a mighty gift that makes an individual feel good about himself, his surroundings and others. It is a feeling of joy and satisfaction. It can be given to anyone. Happiness has no boundaries. It can be seen everywhere. Even with animals. Parents are happy when their child does well. Lovers are happy when they are together. Pet is happy when it gets love. If a person is happy he is mentally and physically fit. Happiness doesn't cost a thing.

Sadness is an emotional and a soft side of life. It is a feeling of thought, loss and helplessness.

Some people like to share their sad moments. While others keep it to themselves. A person is quiet when he is sad. Sadness is a phase or a temporary mood that a person comes across due to certain reasons. This feeling at times can be for the loved ones as well. If you miss someone. If someone has hurt your feelings. If you loose someone.

"As i always feel- It doesn't matter if you don't take part in somebody's happiness but you should always be there for those who are sad or emotionally low."

Sports Legends

Legends are born with three main aspects- "Intensity, Integrity and Intelligence."
Here are some of the greats who have made a name for themselves in their respective sports.
These stars are legends in my eyes.

• Tiger Woods (GOLFER)
• Pete Sampras (FORMER TENNIS CHAMPION)
• Lance Armstrong (WORLD'S BEST CYCLIST)
• Michael Schumacher (FORMER F1 CHAMPION)
• David Beckham (FORMER ENGLAND FOOTBALL CAPTAIN)
• Bret Hart (FORMER WRESTLER)
• Michael Jordan (FORMER NBA STAR)

*Excluding Cricket players.

Cricket

CRICKET. Game i dearly love. I've been playing cricket since childhood. Dreamt of becoming a cricketer, but sadly that dream is just a dream now. This is the only sport which has more than two formats. Test cricket the oldest and the best. One day cricket i.e. 50 overs a side. And finally the new format-Twenty 20. Which people like in today's world. I still prefer test cricket, both watching and playing. I had several opportunities during my cricketing days. I have played in India, Pakistan and in England too. It was a great experience for me. Playing under different conditions and with different people. One of my memorable moment was when i took a wicket of an international player A.J.Burger (Namibia) when i was playing in England.

I have played at several levels. Captained my school team (Mayo). Played district, state, club cricket, village cricket in England and attended few national camps too. I have been coached by many good coaches- Madan Lal (former Indian cricketer), my school coach. Sachin Tendulkar has always been my idol and some people said i looked like him when i used to bat.

I was an all-rounder. Though i started my career as a medium pace bowler. Then switched to spin. Then i started opening the batting along with spin bowling. And fielding has always been my plus point. I was more of a defensive stable batsman rather than an aggressive opener. As a bowler i have had a lot of success.

I was fortunate to visit the home of cricket- Lord's ground in London. As its a dream of every cricketer to see that beautiful stadium. I cannot imagine my life without cricket and i thank my parents for supporting me.

There are few players i admire:

Batters.

• Sachin Tendulkar
• Brain Lara
• Steve Waugh
• Michael Vaughan
• Gary Kirsten

Bowlers.

• Wasim Akram
• Darren Gough
• Shane Warne
• Courtney Walsh
• Allan Donald

All rounders.

• Chris Cairns
• Sanath Jayasuriya
• Shaun Pollock
• Andrew Flintoff
• Nathan Astle

Fielders.

• Jonty Rhodes
• Herschelle Gibbs
• Lou Vincent
• Yuvraj Singh
• Andrew Symonds

Wicket keepers.

• Adam Gilchrist
• Moin Khan
• Nayan Mongia
• Mark Boucher
• Brendon McCullum

Some of my good performance were:

Batting.

• 67 vs DPS Mathura Road in Rajkot ipsc 2004
• 51 vs MNSS Rai in Rajkot ipsc 2004 (match winning single handed knock)
• 58* vs Mayoor school
• 52 vs Rajasthan
• 65 vs Eastbourne college in a club match in England
• 47 (23 balls) for Henfield club in a 20 over match
• 64 (61 balls) in Amity international school
• 149* in a day game
• 57 vs sussex martlets
• 41 vs Ardingly in England

These were some of my top innings along with many other fifty plus knocks. And among those scores, 58 was made 5 times. :)

Bowling.

• 6/56 vs Ellesmere college in England (bowled 19.4 overs on the trot)
• 5/11 vs Rajasthan (including a hat-trick)
• 4/5 vs Bollywood in Mayo (4-2-5-4)
• 4/17 vs Eastbourne college in England

These were some of my top bowling efforts among many other. I had 4 hat-tricks in my career and seven 5 wkts hauls.

As for my fielding. I took many catches, few of them to remember too and many run outs as well.

A cricketers career is incomplete without a blow or two on this body. Well i had a few in my career too and the one i can recall as the most painful blow- Ajmer vs Jodhpur. While batting, i got one in my rib cage and it was very painful.

MAYO College, Ajmer

Mayo- heaven, dreamland, my school. More than 130 years old institute. Royal history behind it. My days in that 400+ acre campus- Those were the best days of my life. Memories of my stay there will always remain with me. I smile, i cry when i think of my school. I miss those beautiful days and priceless moments. I know that time can never return but i am lucky i was a part of that great school which is well known for its Royalty and beauty. 'Proud to be a Mayoite', thats all i can say. Mayo college 'Eton of the east' will live forever.

I can still remember the feeling that grew inside me everytime i entered the main gate, with the view of the main building right before as we entered. I cannot forget my room. It was colourful, clean and pics on the wall and in my cupboard everywhere.

Mayo gave me more than i deserved. Wonderful teachers, everlasting memories, true friends, i was made captain of my school cricket team and college monitor, taught me how to live life, take responsibilities and respect for all.

Because of Mayo i got to visit many places in india. Our successfull visit to pakistan and my exchange program to England and a week in Scotland with my friends.

I made a lot of friends there. Batchmates, seniors and juniors. I got great respect and love from all. My chapter of mayo is incomplete without my house master Mr. Pant who believed in me and supported me throughout my mayo days.

I joined mayo in 9th grade and i was there till my 12th boards. Four great years.

Last few months were amazing. Exam time all of us studied together, midnight parties, playing cricket in the corridor, sneeking out of the campus such moments i wish i could relive.

During those days there were few things i did that i never dreamt of doing such as... sleeping on a railway platform waiting for our 4 a.m. train. That same train being a third class non a/c wooden chair train. Hopping from one platform to another while crossing railway tracks. Walking on the streets late at night. Three hour walk in the middle of the night from Edinburgh to Musselburgh in Scotland with my friends. Eating dinner in famous food street in lahore.

I thank my parents and mayo for giving me such opporunities and for teaching me how to become a better person.

GO MAYO!!!

About ME

सहर्ष Saharsha, people know me by this name. It means loads of happiness. Well... i am like that, and i live life in a positive way. I am a soft spoken and a clean hearted person. I never see anybody in a negative way nor do i talk bad about anyone. I speak less as everyone knows but when i want to speak, i express my feelings and thoughts to the full. Tension and anger are two words that do not go with me. But there are days when i am not up to the mark, I feel low and what i do is, take out my old photo albums, see them and I try to recollect old memories. With tears in my eyes and laughter inside.

I want to make everyone happy and i never think of hurting anyone. Be it anyone. I hate people using foul and abusive language.
I love animals. I have two dogs (Simba and Mogli). But my dream is to keep a tiger and a python(Albino Burmese Python). Most people don't like snakes including my mum. Love wildlife, adventure, sports- mainly cricket and golf but i play all games. I Enjoy driving cars, traveling, seeing different and new places be it New Zealand or Andaman. I have a keen interest in space and its science as to what it really is. Few other interests involve listening to music, watching movies, eating, ghosts and spirits, magic and of course girls, I'm straight. :) I try to be what I am actually, never want to pretend. I don't try to be too cool or hot or any other way, i just try to be simple and show my real self.
In all these years i have learnt alot from my parents, friends and life. I am lucky to have such great parents whom i respect more than god. I might not believe in god at times but I'll always believe my parents at every step of my life. My sweet little sister who is actually three years elder to me, loves me so much that i cannot think of living my life without her. She has been a great support for me. And i cannot forget my two Babies.. Simba and Mogli. I love them from the bottom of my heart. I feel scared when i think that they wont be there one day. My family of different bloods are spiritually bonded together and i love each and everyone, although i might not show it at times.

I don't like to talk about myself much so I'll stop here. My family, my friends and all those people whom i have come across know me.